13 * 3 Things AT-TAG-ED

I was tagged by one of my dear friends to do this... So, here it  goes....

* 3 Famous Names of Mine: Upa (people in my family n some of my closest friends call me by that name); Upii (another family name!!), Upasi (only my pa call me by that name, when he’s utterly happy with me!)

* 3 Things that make me Smile: Sweet nothings, Music and swinging on Swings… :)

* 3 Things that I Love: Paranthas, Coconut Water, Ice-cream… (All for one amazing reason!!!)

* 3 Things I don't understand: Financial stuff (my dad's tried explaining more times than i can count), why people are so pseudo, Loopy talks…

* 3 Things I like about myself: Patience, Adaptiveness and love for Life …

* 3 Things I can't do: Shout out loud, refuse my mom and face some truths (ironic!!!)….

* 3 Things that Scare Me: Umm…. I guess its Darkness (thanks to horror movies that I love to watch…hehe…), Sudden Shocks (they kill your several heartbeats…) and Dramatic sounding Diseases (ehhhh…..)

* 3 Things I think you should listen to: Bollywood oldies (they are the most soulful numbers), Music on my playlist (towards top right), your heart…

* 3 Shows I watched as a Kid: Tom & Jerry (still do…sometimes!!!), Scooby Doo, and Flintstones (loved it)…

* 3 Things I want in a Relationship: Trust, Togetherness and Talks…

* 3 Things of the Opposite Sex that appeal to me: Intelligence, Confidence, Decency…

* 3 Favorite Fictitious Characters: Vito Corleone, Forrest Gump, Dumbledore...

* 3 Things I hate about myself: Laziness, resultant weight gain and my stupid thoughts…

huh....Finally over.... :p

Start Over Again....

In love with the Addison Road songs...they are so true and touchy and at the same time encouraging and uplifting...hands off for the b'utiful lyrics....

Open up your eyes
Awake, arise
Love like a hand reaches down
And pulls us up from the dirty ground

Now is the time
To step from the dark into the light
Cause you can’t change what you’ve done
But you can choose who you’ll become

(CHORUS)
Every moment is a second chance
At starting over, at starting over
Move from the past to the present tense
You can start over, start over again

If you feel ashamed
Of the choices that you’ve made
You can be whole again
And return to your innocence

(CHORUS)
Every moment is a second chance
At starting over, at starting over
Move from the past to the present tense
You can start over, start over again

Yesterday is gone

Today is all you’ve got

You don’t have to be who you’ve been

You can change within

It’s never too late

To start over again

(CHORUS)

Every moment is a second chance

At starting over, at starting over

Move from the past to the present tense

You can start over, start over again

What Are PROBLEMS????

Life….Life is full of problems…each one among has some problem or other. And each and every problem of ours’ seems to be a big hurdle to us. Everyone among us is fighting a battle every day in some way. Imagine life without problems, it will be utopia… ah! Perfect life… but perfection is so boring… Problems make us alive!

So, what basically is P.R.O.B.L.E.M.S?

Predictors: They help mold our future.

Reminders: We are not self- sufficient. We need good and others to help.

Opportunities: They pull us out of our root and cause us to think creatively.

Blessings: They open up doors we usually don’t go through.

Lessons: Each new challenge will be our teacher.

Everywhere: No place or person is excluded from them.

Messages: They warn us about potential disaster.

Solvable: No problem is without a solution.



What all in can say is…

Life is a twister…Accept it... Bear it… Live it... When problems smile at you… Give them your best smile…!!!


Keep Smiling... :)

Toast....

... to today that feels like new pleasant first day of Spring...

... to the perfectly imperfect girl who wants change...

... to Ma for all the nagging and that morning’s inadvertant push...which has been fruitful now....

... to the crap song that I seem to like....

... to the new lifestyle-denoting acronym which isn’t one anymore....

... to the rediscovered colouring book and my poems....

... to the starred email in my inbox, typed with “Infy”....

... to the “bestest” friend who should be on a gondola at sunset under the Bridge of Sighs right now...

... to the recharge battery who owes me a big hot chocolate fudge for this...

... to the “full-time friend”, my telepathic co-pilot with the Midnight Phone Call syndrome...

... to 2 o’ clock nights...
I offer no explanation, but I am very kicked, zinged,verved....
I’ve wanted to start afresh for a very long time....

So, I do...all garbage OUT...

Why Grass is Greener on other Side...

Food for thought...
So this long break has been pretty relaxing.... I have had the time to give some thought to things i wouldn't otherwise think about..maybe..I don't know...

I have often heard people (me being among those people) whine and complain about how the grass is always greener on the other side..is it really the case though???maybe???? I don't know...
When i was younger...much younger..say about 7 or 8 I would look at my parents and my elder sibling and want to be grown up...now I am 21...grown up, most people would agree....Is this really what i wanted when I was little? All these responsibilities and independence? At this point i think i would give a hand and a leg to go back to being 5 or 6 or even younger. Not have a worry in the world, get away with anything I do cause everyone else thinks it is cute...would't that be wonderful????

School....as I started to understand things...My dreamworld broke into pieces...I always disliked school for that initally...those big boring assemblies...those tests....P.T. sessions....ehhh....I hated the fact that I had to read the history book...then those big chemistry books later...uhh...I never wish to hold these books again in my life...But, as the years part by I started to enjoy the school....the teachers...the canteen rounds..those amazing group of friends whom you never wish to leave....On the farewell day...when I came back home...when I actually felt...its going to be over....At that point, I would give anything to just be in school forever....to be with those kind of friends forever...

Then my parents decided to send me to college and hostel followed.... I hated it when i was there. Couldn't wait to get the hell out of hostel that we often compared to a jail.... We hated the food, hated the routein, hated the warden, hated almost everything that was associated with it other than our friends. Finally I graduated this year and then I remember crying like the world was ending.... Suddenly the food seemed to be the best food ever, the teachers, our support system and friends of course are the best friends we will ever make....

Then for the last three months all I have ever wanted was to go back to hostel.... Its the same feeling of not wanting to grow up that I had when i left school.... I love it and I miss everything about the chats, the food, the music, the parties, the hang outs, the teachers, friends...everything, yet it seems like I could do with another year or two... I think it may be that I am not ready to let go....cause I don't know when I will ever see them again.... I am not trying to justify why I feel the way I feel rather i am just wondering if the grass once again seems to be greener on the other side...

That being said, I'm yet to have a job with Infosys and I have a year commitment to the corps, ofcourse if the training goes all gaga....eventhough its my dream job...again all I ever want to do is not to leave home and go off to Karnataka for months....knowing the fact that I might not be able to see some most b'utiful faces for a lifetime... Though, I know that when my commitment to the corps is over I will not want to leave.... My job will be tedious and I'll complain a lot about it but going by the record do I'll really want this to be over and to move on??? I am not sure...

Earlier this year when I was close to graduating I needed to figure out my life so I was looking for jobs and applying to different places on net... But as far by now you have even known, I was convinced that when I did find a job it would be very likely that I wouldn't want it.... In that case then it would be much simpler to just not stress about finding a job and figuring out my life since when I would have it i would not want it???? Yet i couldn't just not stress about it coz at that point in time thats all i wanted...isn't that ironic?

So, coming to think of it we humans are really silly...we spend our entire life running behind things we think we want yet when we have it we realize that that is not what we want.... In this quest for one things after another we fail to appreciate what we have some much beautiful colors at hand...happiness, relationships, friendships, our roots and the values that come with it..what not. How many times have we been there for a friend? How many times have we appreciated what we have that millions don't? How many times have we been thankful for a new day? How many times have we tolerated non sense from people that shouldn't matter yet paid no heed to those that care and in turn let go of a friendship, or a relationship? I may be be able to count these on one hand alone yet I have lost count of how often I have chased something I wanted and then not been happy when I have had it....
Appreciate and be thankful....

Thanks for reading...I appreciate your patience... :D

Never ending ladder...

The ladder....be it any ladder..a ladder to success...a ladder of worries...whatever kind of ladder you may talk...you'll agree when I say that Ladder never ends... As we climb up rungs and live under the illusion or fallacy that we’ve secured one more victory in life, we look towards sky and realize the ladder just got longer, the end somewhere out of sight, beyond the clouds… Sky is a limit but then you wish to cross it to...but that's being optimist...
Actually, all your life we can keep climbing the ladder in the quest to reach the top and never get there! This can be perceived in two ways – the optimist’s dream and the pessimist’s nightmare. The optimist sees this as ambition – a way to push oneself towards achieving more and more. The pessimist knows that this means being insatiable – never satisfied with what one has in life....but that's life...choose it anyway...

While on the way up, a hand may be extended at us for help. Grab it and help, because one good turn deserves another. Once we are higher, we might need a helping hand ourself. It is also true that at every rung scaled, a mad multitude of hands will crop out of nowhere to rip, drag & pummel us down somewhere sometime...
Also we all know that, the success of one indeed poisons the minds of many. While many take joy in the success of one, there are others who do not think of how to replicate such success for themselves but plot how to displace the one who’s higher up somewhere on the ladder. Terminally, the seeds of misery are sown & the chalice of woe tipped over. No one emerges a winner. But in the Almighty’s courtyard, there will be justice for all. For one cannot wage a war against one’s destiny, and what is fated to happen shall play itself out.
But the lesson needs to be learnt - Survival is not the sole mantra. Surviving peacefully, with contentment ,without malice towards others is! And this will give you what no amount of wealth or fame can provide – adoration & respect of loved ones and the greatest treasure of them all – Happiness...
Therefore, live the optimist’s dream....

Keep Climbing...Keep Shining...Keep Smiling... :)

Who will Cry when you cry...

Have you ever thought and thought over something so much, that it hurt??????
So much so ,that it leaves you staring at the ceiling wondering if you're on the verge of going insane........ Sometimes all you see is all pervading madness around you, even though its ironically just confined to the realms of your head. You've tried looking at things with an open-mind so much so that you feel that your head's almost falling apart from all that open-ness.....

You feel like you're losing it and are dying for some perspective....
Any perspective, as long as its not yours b'coz you've had too much of that and it actually kills you....
You start to act all clandestine hoping that someone picks up signals and listens to what you're not saying....
Sometimes that doesn't really work, so you try to reach out to you're friends and talk to them, ask them if you are losing it after all, without having them be all judgmental and think that you're on a one way trip to banana-land..
But it isn't all that easy finding a listener, is it????
Who do you confide in? Not all you're million friends are listeners.

The difference between the both hits you like a bus on the road now....... Problems in life aren't rare, so everyone may not be particularly generous in sympathizing with you. You don't blame them though- after all, to each his problem..... You therefore start convincing yourself into not making a big deal out of this and just wait patiently till your head stops spinning. Which it doesn't.....So you just wait, for nothing actually....
Yet amidst all this, someone finds you- a friend, a not-so friend, a random guy who sat beside you on the white bench at the park, someone on your friend's list you haven't struck a conversation with, someone you don't know..... Someone you have absolutely no pretensions with, someone who makes you just split wide open, someone you can just talk to- without the slightest iota fear or shame, someone who breaks the dam, someone who thinks and puts your perspective in place..... Someone who's like a ray of light in that tunnel.....Someone who listens.....

Things that scared you all this while now start to make some sense, if not all, with a lil bit of help from someone.... Any someone....
The clarity you missed all this while brings a smile to your face, You feel like its rained on your garden after years.... You know that it is possible to share some things with some people and not end up feeling like a fool at the end of it.
And suddenly life doesn't seem all that bad..... Life isnt really all that bad come to think of it.
Its all about finding someone though.....just that SOMEONE!!!